Crotchety Young Woman

I admit it.  I am an optimist.  I try to see the bright side of life.  I think there are enough complaints to be made in general that mine don't need to be added to the heap.  I am perpetually perky and really do try to bring people UP with me, instead of down.

Today...not so much.  I am really in the "please get out of my way before I verbally steamroll you" mood.  And I can only blame myself.

I have been doing really well on my meal plan.  I have veered off of the plan a couple of times (I am only human, after all). Last night was one of them.  I didn't eat anything particularly bad, I just chose to eat a carb-laden snack too close to bedtime.  Not only that, I ate more than I should have that late at night.  I knew it.  And I did it anyway.  I was in a hurry and not pacing my eating.  Rules number one and two (and possibly three) broken.  And I paid dearly for it. 

I have felt like crap all day long.  And feeling like crap physically has only served to make me feel like crap mentally and emotionally. Anyone and everything that could rub me the wrong way today has.  One of my most perceptive reps asked several times if I was okay.  I tried to put on the happy face and say "sure I'm fine." I am fairly confident that I didn't fool him or anyone else.

And so, here I sit, trying to give myself an attitude adjustment and find the sunny side of life.  So far, no dice. I keep remembering the incessant singing (another story for another time) and the talking with a mouth full of food.  The screaming lady with the Christian-themed password and email address who really is one of the most nasty customers with whom I have spoken in a while. All of this has just served to make an already bad day worse.

In the end, I know that it is a momentary lapse in sunshine.  I know that tomorrow is a new day and a new chance to have a new attitude.  I know that I am the only one who can keep me down and keep me in this not-so-great place. 

So now, I am going to bed.  And I AM going to wake up on the right side of it.