The Love Boat

As of today, I have exactly one month before I can no longer change this cruise (at least, not without dishing out more money).  We have made the final decision (I think), but the details are still driving me insane.

I am fairly sure I have previously mentioned my issues with OCD.  Trip planning is not free from this problem.  You would think that because it is a vacation, I would be able to relax, go with the flow, and let the details handle themselves.

Yeah, right.

I am SO not a "go with the flow" kind of person.  I need order, I need schedules, and I need plans.  Simply allowing things to take care of themselves both unnerves me and sends the OCD into overdrive.  I then begin to obsess about all of the things that are not going to be done while I am gone.

I am seriously trying to remember that this is the celebration of the most wonderful decade of my life.  It is a celebration of the ups and downs, trials and triumphs, losses and gains. It is the celebration of overcoming the odds of a multicultural, biracial family and thriving in our mixed up life.  And with that, I know it will all be okay. We have endured infertility, infant loss, fights, and frustrations.  What's a free-flying vacation compared to that?

Will it be perfect and go off without a hitch?  Probably not. After all, our wedding didn't.  Very little has, to be quite honest.

But will it be amazing and relaxing?  Yep:  if I allow it to be.  And I am determined to let it.

Just as soon as I finalize the booking.