"...begins with a single step."
For the last few days, that single step has felt like it is in quicksand and the journey has never felt longer.
I am going to be honest...I feel off the wagon. No, it's probably more accurate to say that I willingly jumped off the wagon while it was still in motion.
On Friday, a follow up appointment didn't go as planned. I hadn't expected to hear great things, but I also didn't expect to get news that puts some plans on the back burner of a stove in China.
Based on that, I have fallen into bad habits. I really didn't care much about what I ate this weekend. If it appealed to me, I had it. Wings? Yep. Dessert? Sure. It was emotional eating, I know.
And I really didn't care.
On the heels of several days of caution to the wind noshing, a work email caught my attention. Our Wellness Center will be having a Biggest Loser contest. While I am feeling like the Biggest Loser right now, that's not quite what they have in mind.
I thought back to this same contest from two years ago. Two years ago, I was on the team that won this very contest. I was committed and really, really worked to do so. There were other people counting on me to succeed.
While I am not necessarily a competitive person by nature, I am very much dedicated to the team spirit. I don't want to disappoint anyone or be the one factor that could cause us to miss a goal. I also want to do it for me, to prove that I am not a quitter...I am NOT a loser.
So, while the journey is still feels endless, and my feet still feel leaden and burdened, I am pushing on.
One step at a time.
For the last few days, that single step has felt like it is in quicksand and the journey has never felt longer.
I am going to be honest...I feel off the wagon. No, it's probably more accurate to say that I willingly jumped off the wagon while it was still in motion.
On Friday, a follow up appointment didn't go as planned. I hadn't expected to hear great things, but I also didn't expect to get news that puts some plans on the back burner of a stove in China.
Based on that, I have fallen into bad habits. I really didn't care much about what I ate this weekend. If it appealed to me, I had it. Wings? Yep. Dessert? Sure. It was emotional eating, I know.
And I really didn't care.
On the heels of several days of caution to the wind noshing, a work email caught my attention. Our Wellness Center will be having a Biggest Loser contest. While I am feeling like the Biggest Loser right now, that's not quite what they have in mind.
I thought back to this same contest from two years ago. Two years ago, I was on the team that won this very contest. I was committed and really, really worked to do so. There were other people counting on me to succeed.
While I am not necessarily a competitive person by nature, I am very much dedicated to the team spirit. I don't want to disappoint anyone or be the one factor that could cause us to miss a goal. I also want to do it for me, to prove that I am not a quitter...I am NOT a loser.
So, while the journey is still feels endless, and my feet still feel leaden and burdened, I am pushing on.
One step at a time.
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